Since the day I met the guys in HPS, I realized how much more inferior my "skills" are compared to others.
True enough, when I look back at my posts here for the past 3 years, I can't help but laugh at myself, have brooding inferiority complex and everything else in between. I frequently find myself asking why I can't learn 's symmetry or 's pencilling skills... Asking myself: "why can't I be as good as them?"

The recent 'Kon and FCBD also add up to it. May be negative or positive, depending on my mood but damn! The artists I saw there just are all too good imo, I've seen so many artists more talented and skilled than I am, and their works far superior than I can ever do. "Starstruck"? No, just a reality check, it made me realize why I idolized the likes of to name a few and of course, so many upcoming talented artists. Luckily, this time, I decided to take it positively.... Of course, as i've mentioned, a sweet couple purchased my Xenomorph drawing, (having impressed someone, or two someones, or sometwo, whatever ) it boosted my confidence but still not full-throttle.

Sir Bernce told the HPS crew to "upgrade" our works, something I have long been thinking so I reviewed my past deviations, looked at what things/areas I lack on.

I knew I'm having a hard time drawing female figures and backgrounds. Main reason is I tried avoiding drawing them as much as I could.
Most of my works here are "half-assed", I draw the subject/character and that's it. As long as my shading on it looks good, I felt contented.

More than a week ago, my girlfriend "challenged" me to draw for her, female characters so she can practice her coloring skills, and I gladly accepted.
Right now, I've given her 6, one of those I drew impromptu (man, her neighbors watched me draw, I should be embarassed but nah, I showed them what I got.)
From the first drawing I gave her to the 6th, I'm proud, and happy to say I see gradual but BIG improvements especially on female anatomy.

HPS plans on releasing a "magazine/compilations" featuring ONLY our "masterpieces". I already have a fan art of 's Arkhell that's my front-runner to make it on the proposed magazine. That fan art is one of my works I'm really proud of.

For now, I'm trying to improve my gallery, portfolio, skills. In this moment, I have added some that I'm proud of, few that I'm happy with but I know one thing, it's MUCH better than ANYTHING you see in my gallery. It comprises of:

- Monkey King
- Arkhell by
- Kid Komet by (yeah! I finally added a background on it!)
-Pagliacci by
- Galamay (an OC of mine)

And added 3 female characters on my portfolio:

- Tinay Pinay ( a new one, NOT the one that autographed )
- Maharlika by
- A valkyrie (another OC? )
(my female drawings don't look muscular anymore )

I know, I know. Maybe you're asking "so what's so special about it? "

Well, because with those latest works, I finally realized the first two things I need to improve.
1. Once an artist know how to "push" a pen, he can only get better by challenging himself drawing things he has difficulty working on (in my case, female figures and backgrounds) instead of avoiding it.
2. NEVER be contented drawing just the subject and/or the simple designs on it. After all, DETAILS teach an artist how to be patient so as I told I will NEVER be contented with something that doesn't have (detailed) background on it. (the big challenge on it is how you make the subject 'pop-out')

Not bragging or something BUT I have more confidence in my skills now than I ever had, so much that I thought of creating a new dA account for my latest works or delete this account because everytihng in here just don't make me happy/proud anymore... I seldom impress myself, maybe because I know how I did an artwork but I have my own eyes that could see my improvements and I'm glad my craft is improving.

Hopefully, I can post some of them soon (I regret turning down Snakey when he asked "may ipapa-scan ka ba?" at the 'Kon). If I don't impress you with those, that should be fine. I'll keep doing and outdoing myself 'till I do, or until I find out if what I'm doing is worth it!

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